corner spot, rocking backwards.

that moment when i say something that's supposed to be jarring and clever, and instead ends up being mean-spirited.

when i get called out in front of everyone.

when my name is said, over and over; as in "no, Holly, that's not okay."

when my pride hurts enough that my eyes fill with ridiculous tears.

when i see how annoying i can be.

when i don't know why i have so much anger towards people with money.

when i embarrass myself.

that moment shames me, sends me backwards into the land of self-loathing, and makes me weary. this, being a person, is sometimes really difficult.